Grace For the Moment

I've grown up hearing the somewhat cliche of "If you feel like you're being attacked, you probably are, because you're a threat to the enemy."

Basically - In the Christian walk, when you KNOW you're doing the right thing, following the will of God, being Christ-like in obeying, and bearing fruits of the Spirit, then you will probably experience things that feel like "why is this happening to me? i haven't done anything wrong, as a matter of fact, I'M DOING THINGS RIGHT FOR ONCE!" Usually, for me, when this happens, it means that I've become more than a blip on the enemy's radar, and he's taking note of the changes I'm executing in my life. I've become a threat. I'm no longer sitting on my rear, waiting for something to change, but I'm BEING the change, and he doesn't appreciate it, so he feels he has to throw things at me to complicate the situation, and trip me all up. He thinks, "maybe she'll get mad a God and throw the towel in and become complacent again....Maybe she'll turn her back on God because she thinks she's being punished for no reason."

Well, what the enemy should know by now, is that when he does those dumb little games, it always draws me closer to my Defender. Think about this for a second -

When a child is small, and for the first few years of life, has been completely dependent on their parent(s) for everything, and starts venturing out... they find something that scares them a bit, or they fall and scrape a knee, or a playmate steals toys, beats up on them a bit... whatever the case may be... what does the child revert back to? Normally, the child - no matter how independent - will always run back to and search for and cry for and reach for what they know has taken care of them and who they know will protect and defend and care for them....

It's the same instance here --

I'm just a baby, still... learning that since before I was even thought of, that I was protected, nurtured, cared for, fought for, cherished, loved, adored... So, naturally, where all of that stems from - God - would be innate inside of me to revert back to. A great mentor told me recently that humans will resort back to whatever is natural to them.... that can be a bit scary, or a bit of a relief.

So... going back to the attacking thing -
When the big bad bully tries to come and beat up on me a bit, then I know instead of trying to fend for myself, i have a Warrior for my cause! So I run as fast as I can back to Him and tattle on the devil, then let Daddy take care of the rest.

The last blog I posted was about how I felt a change brewing, and things started to roll on those changes...

Now, as things are progressively changing and things are becoming more clear and more evident, I don't think that the devil is too pleased, and has decided to try and throw me off...


The coolest thing that I've noticed, is that I RECOGNIZE these obstacles as attacks from the devil, and not as punishment from a God who is just trying to catch me at something I do wrong. I've been very human over the past few months, and my Father has seriously worked on my heart a lot about those things. He's made all my shortcomings very clear to me, but not in a harsh, abrasive manner, and with all the love in the world has told me how to correct them. Yes, I have faced consequences, but now, since I'm making the changes and cutting that garbage out of my life, I no longer am facing consequences, but I'm facing the pissed off enemy who doesn't like when I obey the King...

[wait... whoops... can i say pissed off? well... i just did. :)]

It's a very, very interesting time for me, because I am learning that each circumstance I go through has shown me more and more that it DOES NOT DEFINE ME.
Each circumstance may test me - my character - but scripture tells me that through trials come perseverance, and through perseverance comes strength and through strength, character is molded and birthed into something beautiful...

hmm... now that i think about it... a while back, i was praying that my true character would come to fruition..... Guess i know now better than to pray for that or patience. HA!


Anyways - it just goes to show that change happens, change brings A LOT of traveling companions, and does NOT pack lightly..... But what have I been saying for the past year??

MAKE.A.DIFFERENCE.

Difference is change.

Change is good.

Good is God.

God is Love.

:)

I guess that's really all there is to it.